war zone
the last few days have been a difficult time at home.
thick clouds of unhappiness and issues shrouds the house.
i am drained and disheartened. trapped in a war zone.
however i know i am never lost nor forsaken.
i thank the Lord for His forgiving grace and the gift of faith. in Him i trust completely.
there is no trouble too overwhelming for our Almighty Father.
read the Bible, open up your eyes to 'perceive' and ask for the ears to 'listen'.
we can pray faithfully. prayers are answered in God's time and often in ways we least expect it.
but do remember that God has a mission for us to fulfil.
i thank the Lord for blessing me with a loving and supportive Christian community,
where i can fall back on in my difficult moments. each time i emerge a stronger person.
in the same way, due to all these grace i have received undeservingly,
i also commit myself to being there for others who are weak and lost, so that they may receive God's love and grace which is a joy to be shared amongst all people!
may God bless richly you all, my dear friends who walked with me on this journey.
together we pray, together we lend support, together we work for the coming of His kingdom.
no matter how far apart we physically are, the spirit and love unites us as a body of Christ,
as written by St Paul in a letter to the Romans.
let us be instruments of God's love and be fruitful in our work.
IVINS
went to Ivins at 207 Upper Thomson Rd last nite for dinner.
it's diagonally opposite the Prata shop, next to the few pet shops in a row.
they serve damn good Peranakan cuisine! woohoo!
the Ayam Buah Keluak ($5.50) was good! spicy but sour also..
the Chap Chye was so-so. the pork ball soup (something Kempeting) was nice!
the rempeh also damn power! they also sell kueh-kuehs etc but i was too stuffed already.
i really enjoyed myself =) but be prepared to wait... and wait... can bring poker cards thou!
then just ard Sin Ming Ave got a few pretty quaint chill-out cafes tt serve ice cream and waffles.
yep, complete with Lavazza coffee and white cushy sofas.. =)
can go there next time when i attend Mass at Holy Spirit. yay!
fruitty tutty
veen wants to be a Ribena berry!
yes, that small purple dumb-looking berry!
plump, juicy, ripe and bursting with flavour.
bounce around covered with a leaf and nothing else.
bounce bounce happily.
then get squashed by a juicer into an artificially sweetened juice concentrate.
the end to a miserable existence.
michele... i do not have cable at home. cannot watch mindless cartoon.
nope, don't intend to close my books also.
if i do a bit by a bit everyday, i will get somewhere i'm sure. better than not doing any =)
was doing my readings earlier on.
a thought came into my mind
"is the sheer purpose of my existence is to read heaps of theories, observe the society and then write papers?"
i guess not. though my work may seem a drudgery at times.. i do get bored with it...
i enjoy it.
that's the bottomline.
the climb uphill is tough but the view from above is rewarding.
do what you love or love what you do. thanks Lik.
kitty's toy
Josh came over this morning with my book and a Hello Kitty soft toy bookmark.
that was so sweet =) thanks darling!
yes, i still adore Hello Kitty.
if i ever get a pink Honda Jazz, i am gonna stick Hello Kitty decals all over it.
and the interior would be fully Hello Kitty cushions n tissue box etc.
pink kitty attack.
i've been counting my blessings lately. the Lord has never forsaken me.
many friends have left for overseas, some would be back, some won't.
but all these years, we have kept in touch and offered mutual support.
thank you so much for the love and concern.
you're always in my prayers. God Bless, Amen.
fir
as i lay in bed last nite, reflecting upon the cause of my unhappiness yesterday.
i came to realize it was...
fear.
a fear that yields a chill down the spine.
a fear that throws an emptiness the weight of a lead brick down my stomach.
i fear losing. i fear losses.
the thought of losing what's precious to me can thrust me into an abyss of depression.
the fear of losing drains the soul of naive optimism.
the axis is rotated and the universe upset. orientation is lost.
pray. i know i would not be forsaken by my Lord. i will keep my faith going strong.
thank you so much to Gabriel and Eunice over this weekend. i love you all!
thank you for walking beside me, lifting me up, dressing me down and making me real.
patience - good things are worth the wait.
i guess we each have our own 'baby'.
the baby u go the extra mile for, the baby u pamper and adore, the baby you never get mad at.
doesn't matter if the baby is of the same age as ourselves.
you love and serve because you want to be there for them.
and trust me, the rewards though are intangible are worth every ounce of love given =)
i am glad i am your baby, your cat and your friend.
forgive, love and live.
choices. decisions. consequences.
what drives our choices?
a complete honesty to the 'self'.
principles and values. what are you willing to compromise?
decisions.
they not only affect the 'self' in more ways than one.
they cast an effect on those around us. for the better or worse.
what is important to you? where do you belong? to whom do you belong to?
the consequences.
all of us do make mistakes. admit our wrongs, apologize and seek forgiveness.
what is important is the lesson learnt and not to commit it again. forgive, love and live.
thus be watchful of what you think, say or do the next time round.
coz that might inevitably hurt someone else in the process...
hiatus
tore my contact lens apart while removing it,
think there's a small bit still in my eye.
ouch. pain. hadn't been able to wash it out.
couldn't sleep well last nite as a result.
feeling so tired now... just wanna go back to snooze in my basket.
don't feel like blogging lately.
nothing much to say, nothing much to share, nothing intelligent to write.
gonna take a hiatus from blogging, i really don't have much time for it anymore anyway.
take care and live life! God bless!
providence
dreams.
intuitions.
coincidences.
providence.
what does it matter?
i think life consists of nothing more than accidents and random events.
nothing planned, fated or providential.
everything is about the timing. God's plans in God's time.
the same person at a different time may be another different person.
the same time same event but a different person means a different outcome.
cynicism. optimism.
what does it matter?
the Line
got a new mobile number: 9119 3117 (with effect form today)
went down to Singtel yesterday evening to terminate my line.
they told me it'll take 4 working days.
i happily came to school without my new SIM card.
best part was this... along the way during my 4pm lecture..
i realized my mobile have no reception in class... and my friends called the number..
"sorry, no longer in use". opps. did i forget to bring something here?
eh. i am supposed to meet my friends at SRC for a run later.
very good... now i need to be the first one to be there in case they can't find me.. =(
grumbles. i don't like to go to the pool early and see people swim... i wanna swim too!!!
oh well. think i'll miss 917 600 43 alot.
had that number for more than 2 years... been personalized and it's just part of me..
gotta assume a new identity now. sigh.
Dr. Straughan was pretty funny today, stats class wasn't as bad as imagined.
she's really good at explaning complicated concepts... the classmates are quite nice too.
but the maths problems were totally mind boggling! bah! needs lotsa practice.
spent 4 hrs with stats today... and for once, Dr. Ghana ended class EARLY at 5.30pm..
it's now 5.50pm and i'm sitting in lab trying to construct my questionaire.
Life is good.
family
Home is where the heart belongs.
Family is where i belong.
it's been a good weekend.
had family gatherings... finally in many months since Lunar New Year.
eating together at the same table, helping out in the kitchen,
watching tv and chatting after dinner, catching up with each other's lives...
family catches you when you fall;
cleans your mess when you're in trouble;
hold you when you're weak and ill;
love you for the shit-piece that you are.
despite all the games we played with and against each other,
in times of troubles, differences are set aside to seek a solution.
all to keep the family together.
in love we grow closer, in prayers we grow in faith.
to my family,
i love the all of you. cross my heart babies. thanks for loving me too. Grandma, thanks for all the sacrifices made to keep the family together and alwiz leading us through hard times. May God bless our family with bliss and good health.
Moto V3 Razr.
after seeing this V3 sitting in the Singtel showcase yesterday at its price of $298,
i felt a bad urge to get it. been dreaming of it the entire day.
so i did. walked to TM after dinner, bought myself a new phone =/
but i am not going to bring it to school or anywhere in case it gets stolen...
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